Soapopera
April 1997
Our second full length album.
Rite-Off Records 1137-2
Available at cdbaby.com, and as a digital download from iTunes.
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Track Listing
- Speechless
- Soapopera
- Brand New Sunglasses
- Bittersweet Day
- Martyrs
- Mite
- Too Far
- Stupid One
- Overdrawn
- My Favorite Fear
- Fingernails
- Prerequisite Rocker
- So Many Times
- Only Smile
Lyrics
speechless (chow/kennedy/welsh)
waking with a thought that fades, a glimmer gone for good/imagining
the other face, I'm finding that I should not look beyond the
comfort clause to see how this will end/the floor and ceiling
never meet/I'm walking on my hands/I love you when you're miles
away/I'm speechless in your presence/I'll think about you twice
a day, and smile through my sentence/still all in all, the speechless
call from my heart is your name/the endless ring of reckoning's
the same/fading with a day that greys/a wish that won't but would/just
let me know the time and place my statues never stood/I'm numb
and cold from shoulders up, so self-absorbed, it stings/with feeling
gone, I'm drained of thought/please tell me what this means/so
now connect and fall apart/I'm speechless in your presence/no,
you can't say we never tried to gamble with the heavens/still
all in all, the speechless call from my heart is your name/the
restless ring of reckoning's the same/the speechless call…/I love
you when you're miles away/I'm speechless in your presence/I'll
think about you twice a day, and smile through my sentence/so
now connect and fall apart/I'm speechless in your presence/no,
you can't say we never tried to gamble with the heavens
soapopera (wehler/chow/kennedy/connor)
I met her standing at a bus stop sign/came up to me, asked the time/I
couldn't tell her, 'cause my arms were bare/she smiled and shrugged,
didn't care that I couldn't help her out/I coudn't give her any
information/she left me stranded with a nagging doubt, and with
a sense of agitation/I saw her later at the laundromat/watched
her as I washed my hat/I didn't notice that my clothed turned
pink/she smiled, stood up, and she came over just to help me out/she
got me through my color separation/was this my chance just to
ask her out, or just idle conversation?/oh, no - here I go again/I'm
crawling on the floor again/I'm falling for a girl again/my hands
are wet, but my clothes are dry/I wish I'd known which brand of
soap to buy/your place or mine, baby?/ oh, no - here I go again/I'm
crawling on the floor again/I'm falling for a girl again
brand new sunglasses (kennedy/welsh/epperson)
waiting for something to come and engage him/he's waited so long
to be where…/(I don't know this one) how does this one go?/(I'm
alone and) I'm alone, staring down through his brand new sunglasses
gone/her shiny smile makes him wanna try her on, but for her knees
giving way again, the dance continues/insecurities are an ugly
friend, oh yeah/waiting for something to come and engage her/she's
waited so long to be where…/(I don't know this one) how does this
one go?/(I'm alone and) I'm alone, staring down through her brand
new sunglasses gone/his shiny smile makes her wanna try him on,
but for his knees giving way again, the dance continues/ insecurities
are an ugly friend, but then again… it's starting slow, spirits
flowing through their veins will make a change, but there they
go, spinning so their waiting will be through/waiting for someone
to come and engage me/I've waited so long to be where… I've waited
so long to be there… I've waited so long to be here/ (I don't
know this one) how does this one go?/(I'm alone and) I'm alone,
staring down through his brand new sunglasses gone/her shiny smile
makes him wanna try her on, but for her knees giving way again,
the dance continues/insecurities are an ugly friend, but then
again, again
bittersweet day (connor/kennedy/epperson)
where to begin, pulling names from a hat with no brim/my patience
wears thin/it's coming around/I just can't keep from smiling again/a
painted-on grin/ I wonder why I never get to sleep/I'm lying down
in emptiness too deep/ bittersweet something missing/kiss me,
and I will be strong/just play along/ you were the first one listening
to someone with nothing to say/bittersweet day/it's time to get
down, pull myself off the ceiling again/I've got business outside,
and I can't run away/have to be everywhere at one time, and I'm
always behind/please tell her how I never get to sleep, 'cause
I'm lying down in emptiness too deep/bittersweet something missing/kiss
me, and I will be strong/and did I say you were the first one
listening to someone with nothing to say?/bittersweet day/it's
fine to let go of the anger that's building inside/all my motives
collide, and it feels like the day to begin taking care of myself/
I've got places to go/please tell her how I never get to sleep,
'cause I'm lying down in emptiness too deep/bittersweet something
missing/kiss me, and I will be strong/just play along/you were
the first one listening to someone with nothing to say/bittersweet
day
martyrs (kennedy/chow/epperson/welsh)
climb into a burning cadillac to seal your suicidal pact, and get
the monkey off your back, and maybe make some money/take a roundhouse
on the chin, invite the boston strangler in, take a fall like
gunga din/martyrs can be funny/well am I the worst case you've
found holding you down?/ghandi and your mommy built a cross for
you, then the dalai lama showed you that hair-do, but you were
smarter, brand new martyr/brand new martyr, yeah - that's you/brand
new martyr, yeah - that's you/god's new fool, that's so cool/throw
your coat down in the rain, take a bullet in the brain, tell your
friends you're not insane, but your nose is runny/burn with joan
out on the stake, walk across the coals you rake, think of all
the friends you make/martyrs sure are funny/am I the best friend
you've got when I'm not around?/ghandi and your mommy built a
cross for you, then the dalai lama showed you that hair-do, but
you were smarter, brand new martyr/brand new martyr, yeah - that's
you/brand new martyr, yeah - that's you/god's new fool, that's
so cool/you can beat yourself 'till you're black and blue/maybe
elton john will sing for you if this song is not an apt tribute
to your star/am I the worst case you've found holding you down?/brand
new martyr, yeah - that's you/brand new martyr, yeah - that's
you/god's new fool, that's so cool
mite (kennedy/chow/connor/wehler)
jammin' me in like I waste your time/makin'
me feel like I'm asanine/well, I'm trying just to get you on the
telephone, moaning "it's
the wrong time," or you just aint home/I'm ugly in my bed,
crepe paper in my head, and my eyes roll back, my bones all crack
inside, 'cause I'm a sucking mite/I'm a bleeding bite/I take away
your daylight/I smash every picture, you're still around, sleep-walking
naked all over town, and you're sucking, sucking, sucking all
my energy/hands up in the air, there's nothing left of me, with
eyes revolting red from all the things you said, I tuck my tail,
and like a snail, I hide, 'cause I'm a sucking…/with eyes revolting
red from all the things you said, I tuck my tail, and like a snail,
I hide, 'cause I'm a sucking mite/yeah, I'm a bleeding bite/I
take away your sight/I swallow all the light/I take away your
daylight… your daylight/'cause I'm a sucking…
too far (kennedy/wehler/chow)
haven't seen you for awhile now/guess the time between us brought
me back, you know/here I come again to listen/waited for a year
to hear you speak/I'm so weak/I'm a planet, you're my star now/I'm
following you, but you're burning me with distance/you're too
far/stumble blindly, falling after you/can't see through these
blisters on my eyes/count on me to tag along/ anywhere I go I
don't belong/I'm always wrong/I'm a planet, you're my star now/I'm
circling you, but I know I'll never reach you/you're too far/I'm
a planet, you're my star now/you're all that I know, but I know
I'll never reach you/you're too far/I'm a planet, you're my star
now/I'm following you, but I know I'll never reach you/you're
too far… too far
stupid one (kennedy/chow/yanek)
I suppose you're wanting me to get down on my hands and knees and
say you are the only one I've found out there for me, but I hate
to let you down/ you finally think you thought you found someone
that you could use like this and always be around/well how does
it feel to be the stupid one, trying to explain this ugly mess
to everyone?/now that it's real, and what's done is done, there's
no one left for you to blame, nowhere left for you to run/it's
no big deal to be the stupid one/your mother always wanted you
to grow up to be someone who could take the world right by the
balls and crown yourself a queen, but like the cutest puppy dog
that grows into a mongrel, you've screwed around and thrown away
the chance you had with me/well how does it feel to be the stupid
one, trying to explain this ugly mess to everyone?/now that it's
real, and what's done is done, there's no one left for you to
blame, nowhere left for you to run/it's no big deal to be the
stupid…/a thousand times I told myself that there was you and
no one else, but if that's true, I'm telling you I'm giving up,
'cause trying's only trying/truth be told, I'm glad you're crying/your
souvenirs mean nothing to me now/hey - how does it feel to be
the stupid one trying to explain this ugly mess to everyone?/now
that it's real, and what's done is done, there's no one left for
you to blame, nowhere left for you to run/it's no big deal to
be the stupid one
overdrawn (chow/kennedy)
her talk is cheap, but she's making little
sense/while I'm cashing it in, she's bouncing checks/counting every
kiss, it amounts to this: she's getting me up, but she's letting
me down/the owner has pilferred the store/she's tied all the knots
in the noose that she bought, but her credit's no good anymore/her
credit's no good anymore, and she's overdrawn again/talk is cheap,
but it's not for sale/she keeps telling me hers is in the mail/staring
at the screen at a dying scene/she listened intently, an evening
was spent as he told her the tales of his life/he wanted to move
her, but "he was the loser," she said as she pulled
out the knife/she said as she buried the knife, and she ran into
the night comes again, and the curtain comes down/she falls out
of bed, but all that she leaves me are nails pounded into my head/she's
getting me up, but she's letting me down/I'm pulling away from
her shores, but her credit's no good anymore, and she's overdrawn
again
my favorite fear (kennedy)
oh, no/there's nothing like relief because you're already dead,
nothing wrong believing all the crap that you've read/in a nutshell,
it's okay to be all the stupid things you've grown to be/it's
everything to be in love and just wanna die, nothing when the
thing you want just spits in your eye/can you beat it, when below
your feet, the ground opens up, and prepares to eat?/(oh, no)
- it's trouble here again/(oh, no) - my favorite fear again, catching
me without the eyes to see… my favorite/it's nice to cry your
eyes out with a paper and pen, contemplating suicide with coffee
and zen/it's prolific I long to be, with a donor card and hypocrisy/(oh,
no) - it's trouble here again/(oh, no) - my favorite fear again,
catching me without the eyes to see… my favorite, my…/oh, no -
oh, yeah/it's my… it's my… it's my favorite/it's my middle name
that gets me, yes, I think that's the rub/is it everything I wanted?/is
it worthy of love?/is it pompous?/that's what I tend to be/a walking
greeting card's type philosophy/(oh, no) - it's trouble here again/(oh,
no) - my favorite fear again, catching me without the eyes to
see my… my favorite, yeah/(oh, no) - my favorite fear, yeah, catching
me without the eyes to see/my favorite, my… / oh, no - you're
catching me without the eyes to see
fingernails (kennedy)
get it right this time/learn to pay no mind/try to see it through/pray
it all comes true, and it's alright if inside you've already succumbed
to the gloom/ you're the uncoolest thing that I've run into, but
I can't pull my fingernails from you/is it funny as hell to watch
me lose?/mouth to mouth insight/nothing else seems right/thirsting
for this pain/unwashable blood stain/if it comes out, with no
doubt, I'm a fool who knows way more than you/you're the screwed-upest
thing that I've run into, but I'm feeling my fingernails pull
through/is it funny as hell to watch me lose?/… to watch me lose…
to watch me lose/live through all I do, shameful, sad, and true/do
it all for you/a one-way fist-class fool/you're the uncoolest
thing that I've run into, but I can' pull my fingernails from
you/is it funny as hell to watch me lose?/… to watch me lose…
to watch me lose
prerequisite rocker (kennedy)
the last time I had one, it bit me/you said, "take a chance,"/see
what it's gotten me/so I put my foot down, and said: bone-crunching,
blistering, bad-acid bowling for premature pregnant teenagers with
no soul, with deestortion, black-lighted tube tops, a magic potion/I've
got a bone to pick/ watch out for the explosion/so I put on my make-up
and hit the town/ strapped on my hairspray for a go-around/I waxed
down my axe, now, for a splinter-scene, and then I twist my head
'round, and said: bone-crunching, blistering, bad-acid bowling for
premature pregnant teenager with no soul, with deestortion, black-lighted
tube-tops, a magic potion/I've got an axe to grind/watch out for
the explosion/the last time I had one, it bit me/you said, "take
a chance,"/see what it's gotten me/so I twist my head 'round,
and said: bone-crunching, blistering, bad-acid bowling for premature
pregnant teenagers with no soul, with deestortion, black-lighted
tube-tops, a magic potion/I've got a bone to pick/watch out for
the explosion
so many times (kennedy/chow/yanek)
what would you think of me tomorrow, if I let you down today, looking
for the words to say?/how could I face a day without you?/I couldn't
find the strength alone/I could not make it on my own, if you're
not there/so many times you try to catch me/so many times you
watch me fall/so many times to try to help me make some sense
of it all/so many times I've been afraid to even call/ when all
these words are left unspoken, will they shadow all our doubts?/can
we learn to live without all these fears?/so many times you try
to catch me/so many times you watch me fall/so many times to try
to help me make some sense of it all/so many times I've been afraid
to even call/don't watch if I go, and I leave you here again/these
things stay the same, and the cycle never ends - and when the
silence has been broken, would you listen to my song, even if
it came out wrong?/it's loud and clear/so many times you try to
catch me/so many times you watch me fall/so many times you try
to help me make some sense of it all/so many times you catch me
running/ so many times you slow me down/so many times I've been
afraid to even call
only smile (kennedy/wehler/connor)
well you can take your sweet old time/I am resigned to hang around
on your front porch, and outside your door/I'll rack my brain
to let you know you're my only smile today/don't you ever go away/you're
my only smile today/ don't go away/when you're not home I lose
my breath/I sing this song, this song that takes me to your front
porch, and outside your door/I've racked my brain/I turn to go/you're
my only smile today/don't you ever go away/you're my only smile
today/don't go away